I am not going to tell you about what I do (not here anyway), my family, my dog etc. I am going to tell you my story. My Journey back to ME.
I have been where you are today. For 27 years (and probably longer), I have suffered from EXTREME panic attacks, extreme anxiety and disordered eating. I tried for many years to control it through exercise, nutrition, acupuncture, etc. on my own but to no avail. I was lost- physically, mentally, emotionally and energetically.
Years ago, it all came to a head. My body started shutting down. I was debilitated by 12-15 severe panic attacks a day with constant anxiety. At this point I was a mess and completely non- functioning. I could hardly function enough to take care of myself let alone my family and 4 children.
I felt like I was going insane. What did I do to deserve this? Do I need to be institutionalized? These are some of the questions I asked myself. Of course, this wasn’t my fault but I felt as if it was. I felt defeated, lost and alone.
After trying everything from acupuncture, Chinese herbs and more, I finally gave in and went to the doctor. Feeling utterly and completely defeated, I agreed to take the medicine my doctor prescribed. I knew I was going to have to do this so I could function and take care of my family. I really didn’t want to give into that but what choice did I have. None that I knew of at that time. I really hated taking the anti-depressants (I went through several) for this but I couldn’t go on like I was.
After a few weeks, I did start to feel better and began to function closer to what I thought was normal again. I was relieved but still hated taking the medicine.
A couple of years later I tried to get off but couldn’t due to the addictive qualities and the horrible side effects. Defeated again.
Another year past and the panic attacks came back- even on the meds. This time they happened mainly while I was driving- not a good scenario at all, especially with kids in the car with me. I became so afraid to get in the car and go anywhere. Defeated again. I upped my meds on my own but it didn’t help much at all.
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During this time I was enrolled in holistic nutrition school. I listened to an amazing lecture called Food & Mood. It lasted a mere 30 minutes but was the turning point in my life. I immediately decided, based on the information in this lecture alone, that I would fix my “problem” myself. I mapped out my plan and purchased what I needed. What this lecture taught was neuro nutrient therapy – using good nutrition plus supplementation to cure different mood disorders and addictions. Holy Cow!! Hallelujah! This was it! Victory! Within 2 days, yes 2 days, I was completely off the medications (the highest doses of Wellbutrin, Lexapro, and Xanax) with NO side effects- not one. I kept waiting for them but they never came. I felt great; much better than I had in a very long time.
I went for several years happy as a lark, continuing to have great success with myself and many clients until one day I felt something was still missing. I had this underlying sense of uneasiness and fear. Once I took notice of it, I realized it had been there all along. Everything was great! What could be missing? It was ME!! I was what was missing. I had lost myself, my personal power and my purpose in this lifetime of struggling.
I set upon a journey of self-discovery. I read book after book and got my hands on anyone and anything that I thought would help me understand ME better and what was happening. I discovered that I am an Empath, an extremely sensitive one at that. I take on everyone’s emotions, feelings and pain (physical and emotional) around me. Wow. That explained a lot. I feel like that was also part of my anxiety struggle and part of that constant uneasy feeling that continued to linger. I had honestly begun to fear myself and minimized my own abilities and purpose in life.
I needed to find a way to ground myself and be fully present in my body. This is when Reiki came into my life. Knowing absolutely nothing about it, one day I decided that Reiki was something that I HAD to learn. Right now!! I had never experienced it in any way but I knew I needed to do it to continue on my path back to ME!
It was a life changing experience. I learned so much about myself; how to use my energy to heal myself and others and to protect myself from others’ energies. YESS!!
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I needed more. I still lived in fear (of myself and my capabilities in the world). I longed to live from a place of truth and understand what my true purpose in this life is. I took on meditation at a much deeper level. I started doing yoga and actually became an instructor. It wasn’t enough. As well as I appeared to be doing on the outside, I was still internally suffering. I knew there had to be more.
The final piece of the puzzle arrived; at least thus far in my personal journey. A process called Divine Navigation. I received an email that talked about personal suffering and releasing it once and for all, understanding my life’s purpose and who I truly am. I thought to myself, “Is this for real?!? The universe always shows up for me when I need it (or ask for it)”. I immediately took action to find out more.
I promptly signed up for the process and loved it so much that I signed up to be certified to use the process to help others. This was the missing piece of the puzzle. This process has given me the knowledge and understanding of the true ME. The ME that lives my truth, my power and my purpose!!
And here we are today. I stand before you as your guide and mentor, to walk with you on The Journey to discover Your Path Back to YOU!!! It can be scary to take that first step but I assure you that I am here to hold your hand every step of the Path.